how I realized I wanted to be a writer
It was written in the stars…
no, literally! If there was ever a podcast in the future that asks me, “when did you realize you wanted to be a writer?” I would say I had an epiphany one day reading my astrology.
Now, you’re probably one of two audiences here. I completely lost you as soon as I said astrology because it’s nonsense.
Or two, you believe there IS some connection between your birthday and your life path/pattern,
so you’re willing to give me the benefit of the doubt and read more.
Chidi and I - Unique Connection
We come from different generations. A little silly but I do consider my dog my son so I think the connection here is really sentimental.
One weekend, I paid for a subscription to THE PATTERN. TLDR, it’s an in-depth look at your life pattern and personality using astrology. Before I even noticed my life pattern, my main interest in this app was learning about the bonds I have with everyone - and I was warped in because every relationship bond I ran felt SO TRUE. I recognized the strength shared between each friend, lover, and family, and also felt so firmly understood the shortcomings and struggles of each relationship.
It put me through so many emotions as I read about the astrological pull and past life karmic links I have with my best friends, husband, exes, and family; yet, it all made sense to me. I even connected with my pets and was touched by the readings.
So after exhausting my curiosity about my relationships, I finally began deep diving into my Life Pattern readings. If I had felt so strongly validated by my bonds reading, some of me believed that my Life Pattern readings hinted at my life, the choices I’ve made, and who I am supposed to be.
“What does this all mean....”
So..it took a lot of thinking and processing, it was really emotional and I cried a lot because, at this point, I already had an idea I have already started to think about…
Backstory:
In the years I’ve been with my now-husband, I always bring up fun or crazy ideas as a side hobby and passion projects.
credit: @pianist_cake
It has ranged from reasonable -maybe- wanting to be a baker and create super beautiful flower cupcakes and cakes shown here.
And then I’ve had crazy ideas like wanting to be a big cat’s caretaker, like going to the sanctuary and caring for rescued big cats. I’ve always loved my cats so much that I wanted to care for big cats like Carole Baskin. I even wanted to convince my husband I could foster kittens in our tiny apartment with three pets. Crazy? No, I think of it as lots of love!
I’ve also wanted to open a photography studio like the ones in Asia,
credit: Kohit Wedding
I think it could have a HUGE market here and a significant chance of doing well. But it requires investment and time, something I wasn’t sure I could commit to. I had the same issue with wanting to become a florist. Although I love the idea, the time and work put into events and running a floral business is true dedication; something from just a vlog steered me away. D:
So as you can see, my husband was familiar with my bouts of artistic ideas. I’ve always had such interest in everything pretty but was never confident I had the willpower to execute any of my thoughts successfully. It’s been a lot of talking and no walkin’, so when this idea magically came to my head a month from this astrological epiphany, my husband and I thought it would be another passing idea.
But the more I thought about this idea over the month, and as I reached this epiphany moment reading my Life Pattern …
I’m realizing I might have more to give to this world than I may have thought. I really believe I have stories that can make a big impact…..